When I was 11-years old, I was told I needed to lose weight. I was very self-conscious of how I looked, and being an over-weight gymnast who had to wear a leotard didn’t help my self-image. I felt embarrassed and ashamed. I tried a number of diets but couldn’t seem to lose any weight. I blamed myself for not having enough discipline and self-control. I carried this self-hatred with me into my adulthood.
I got married and had a kid very young. A few years later, I had my second child. I “grew up” fast but didn’t really mature. I stayed busy trying to be a Stepford wife and mother and a perfect Christian role-model. Dieting was more about punishing myself than about wanting to feel healthy. I did lose some weight but I was hungry most of the time and unhappy all the time. (I later learned that my chronic unhappiness was actually clinical depression and I was hungry because I wasn’t eating the right kinds of foods for my body type.)
My perfect world started falling apart when I went through a divorce. A few years later, I ruptured two discs in my lower back and began having chronic pain - it hurt to WALK. I feared gaining weight because I couldn’t exercise. My depression worsened. Then I remarried, only quickly to find out that my husband had a drinking problem. During this time period, my professional life mirrored my personal life, and I had a number of different unfulfilling jobs. I got to the point of exhaustion - I was so tired that during my lunch hour I would drive to a nearby park and sleep for 30-minutes just to get through the day. I couldn’t sleep at night; I was exhausted, depressed, and my physical health was worsening. I had hit my rock-bottom and didn’t have the energy to pull myself out of that hole.
One thing I had learned when I’d first started attending a 12-step program was the idea of “Keep It Simple”. So I asked myself, “What is the most important thing I need to fix now?” I decided it was to get some relief from my physical pain. During lunch the next day, before taking my nap, I called a chiropractor and made a same-day appointment. I felt a little better. The next day before my lunchtime nap, I called my family doctor and made an appointment for later that week. She prescribed some medication that I needed to pull me out of my depression. I started to sleep better at night and have less physical pain. My mood improved; I had a little more energy. Next I sought out counseling. It took about 18-months of different modalities and treatments, but I got out of that hole. I continued to ask myself daily “What is the most important thing I need to do just for TODAY that will promote my well-being?” and I continued to take simple, easy steps. It created a snow-ball effect, in a positive way.
That was 11 years ago, and today I am happy and energetic and feeling ALIVE. My life still continues to evolve and get better. I still go through times where I eat too much or strain my back or am too hard on myself, but most of the time I like myself just fine. I start every day with mediation and reflection, and I still ask myself, “What do I need to do just for TODAY that will promote my well-being?” My life changed, and it all started with a simple step.
I wish to be a catalyst for every client on her personal journey of self-discovery and healing. May each person I work with find energy, encouragement, and empowerment!
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